My maths IGCSE is in a few days. or a month to be exact. And I don't know if I am sure of it anymore. What I meant was... well yes the exam will still happen in a month time... but I am not so sure if I'll be able to do it. wait.... lemme rephrase that.. I'm not sure if i'll be able to pass it with an A.
This year, I've been living in a constant fear of failing my maths exam. When I found out that I am doing my maths IGCSE this year- I couldn't think properly. It's like... last year you were just a year 9 student- having the time of your life before your IGCSEs.. and then suddenly.. There! You're doing your maths exam in a few months!!! It's so sudden. And I'm still shocked. It's just crazzzyyyyy. I don't expect life to get this real this fast. I am still 14.
And maths being my WEAK point did not help this situation at all. I hate maths. I don't know. I don't know if i hate maths as it is, or my teacher or my anything I dont know. The thought of maths just made me hate life in general. You know they said... you find inspiration on every thing you study.. well.. lemme tell you.. the inspiration that I got from maths is... that.. it's making me want to kill myself.
Oh and ... another think I would like to touch upon. You know how people say they want you to get the top grades or the top percentages... or top whatever... well.. how about try helping us get into that TOP grades- top percentages. How about that? Clearly, telling a freaking student that what they did is not good enough WON'T and I'm telling you WON'T get them top grades. At least not to me. THAT is NOT motivation(if for some of you dumbass think it is... IT'S NOT). You know why it's not? Because the outcome of it won't be me getting A* and As. But it will be me lying dead on the floor of my bedroom. I don't find motivation from YOU telling me that what I did is not good enough. I tried okay. I fucking tried. And now, how about YOU try helping ME to get the top grades. (If any of my teachers are reading this..which i highly doubt it but well if you think it applies to you Mr, Mrs, Miss- then yes i am talking about you)
Hahaha.. you're probably reading this hoping to find another interesting adventure that I've encountered aren't you? Well sorry If i've disappoint you.. this is just another rant that doesn't make any sense and I'm sorry for taking your precious few minutes away from your precious lives for reading this.
This year, I've been living in a constant fear of failing my maths exam. When I found out that I am doing my maths IGCSE this year- I couldn't think properly. It's like... last year you were just a year 9 student- having the time of your life before your IGCSEs.. and then suddenly.. There! You're doing your maths exam in a few months!!! It's so sudden. And I'm still shocked. It's just crazzzyyyyy. I don't expect life to get this real this fast. I am still 14.
And maths being my WEAK point did not help this situation at all. I hate maths. I don't know. I don't know if i hate maths as it is, or my teacher or my anything I dont know. The thought of maths just made me hate life in general. You know they said... you find inspiration on every thing you study.. well.. lemme tell you.. the inspiration that I got from maths is... that.. it's making me want to kill myself.
Oh and ... another think I would like to touch upon. You know how people say they want you to get the top grades or the top percentages... or top whatever... well.. how about try helping us get into that TOP grades- top percentages. How about that? Clearly, telling a freaking student that what they did is not good enough WON'T and I'm telling you WON'T get them top grades. At least not to me. THAT is NOT motivation(if for some of you dumbass think it is... IT'S NOT). You know why it's not? Because the outcome of it won't be me getting A* and As. But it will be me lying dead on the floor of my bedroom. I don't find motivation from YOU telling me that what I did is not good enough. I tried okay. I fucking tried. And now, how about YOU try helping ME to get the top grades. (If any of my teachers are reading this..which i highly doubt it but well if you think it applies to you Mr, Mrs, Miss- then yes i am talking about you)
Hahaha.. you're probably reading this hoping to find another interesting adventure that I've encountered aren't you? Well sorry If i've disappoint you.. this is just another rant that doesn't make any sense and I'm sorry for taking your precious few minutes away from your precious lives for reading this.
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